It finally struck me that the reason I am not where I think I need to be is because I’ve been unwilling to look past where I am right now. The way I’ve been doing things clearly haven’t served me. So I am going to take a fearless inventory of where I am (physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually and financially). Then I am going to change the things which need changing, tweak the things which need tweaking and keep the things that are working. In other words, reinvent myself to be better, but still me.

Well, it has been said before, however, it bears repeating. We really do, each of us, create our own reality. I cannot blame anyone else because I am unemployed for the third February in a row. I can’t say anyone else is responsible for the fact that I haven’t had a romantic relationship in over 12 years, or that the good health I am used to has been less so lately. I see this period in my life as one where the need for change has made itself known. I appreciate this wakeup call.

This is a continuation of allowing myself to be guided. I have to say that this is easier said than done. That old ego tries to control and direct. Fine, if you are in a fear focused mode, however, this is something I am trying hard to escape and change. Maybe I need to completely throw out the agenda and plans which up to now really haven’t worked. It’s challenging and scary. However, without releasing the old, there will be no room for the new. Meditation will help…