Without letting go of the present, there can be no opening for the new. When certain patterns or behaviors seem counterproductive, they often are. Just recognizing this, is often sufficient to make a shift. Release it to Spirit, or the part you connect with when  you pray or meditate. Then allow the void, which has been created, to fill with more positive energy, attracting what is needed.

Someone called me an ‘Elder’ today. This was during a conversation we were having on aging. ‘How old are you now?’, he asked. when I told him, he responded, ‘you are an elder, and you should celebrate it’. Immediately my stomach began hurting. Although some people would give me credit for my accomplishments, I really feel like I haven’t achieved what I want. This attitude is completely negative and self defeating. I guess the most productive thing for me to do is accept where I am and celebrate, rather than lament. Well, it will be interesting to see what the next year brings. It has gone so very fast. I am finding myself going through a major mind shift. Every negative thought and worry is being substituted with surrender. It is working. I am becoming more positive and motivated. It is challenging, however, doing this is so worth it.

The voice comes softly at first. For a moment I think I imagine it…then I realize it is my intuition! Yay! This is something I have always had (everyone does), however I have just started to really listen to it. I have to give credit -for this to enhanced sensitivity- to expanding my meditation. I have long felt that meditation is one of the quickest ways to increase your intuition. The secret is learning to trust what you receive.

Tomorrow I begin a new job. I have mixed feelings re this. Part of me is delighted to be employed again; another part has gotten used to just working on my metaphysical pursuits (something I have grown to love). During the time I have been unemployed, I have done a lot of work on myself. I have also reconnected with different metaphysical stores; made new friends; lost others; studied Spanish…just done a overall major haul on myself. I have learned to worry less, and be more courageous. All in all it has been an interesting period. I look forward to seeing what happens next.