In October of 2010 a Facebook pal posted that she was going to list something she was grateful for every day until Thanksgiving. I liked the idea so much that I decided to do the same. ‘If nothing else’, I thought, it will remind me to be thankful.’
That was in October of 2010 ( more than 5 ½ years ago )and I am still finding something to be thankful for each day. Some days are easier than others to find something. These are the times when I easily find 4 or 5 things to list. Other times, it’s more challenging to find anything to post.
I always do find something, however, and this, has really enabled me and recognize how much I already have. It is a way of thanking the Universe and raising your vibration; and when you do this, the Universe continues to bring in more and more things to match it.
(Originally Posted on October 5, 2013)
Yesterday morning I learned something about communication.
Sitting at my computer, I heard my cat Spirit making sounds as she at on the windowsill looking out. Because she was behind the blinds,(I was unable to see what or whom she was talking to). I decided to investigate.. Walking up to the window and opening the blinds, I was surprised to see a neighbor’s white cat walking on the edge of the brick wall right in front of my window. Because my cat is also white, the image was breathtaking. The thing I noticed about the interaction between the two felines is that they were getting along. Each was doing their thing; Spirit sitting on the sill, surveying the scenery; the other cat, busy exploring the brick wall (and surrounding area) he was walking on.
Upon discovering what had claimed Spirit’s attention, I returned to my desk to continue typing. As I sat there, my attention returned to Spirit and the other cat. Although I was unable to see either of them, I knew they were communicating in their own way. Spirit, although curious about the ventures of the other cat, (I will call him ‘David’ here) was fine with him walking around. David was also fine, as his casual, yet intent, gait and manner indicated. And I realized-as I watched the pair of them- that I was able to tune into and access the situation simply by observing without any ideas about what was going on.
This is just another example of how one can listen with all their senses.
I feel as though I am on the precipice of a shift on all levels. Although uncertain what this will look like, I know that it will be Divinely orchestrated. I sit here on June 27th, in the wee hours of the morning unable to sleep. I have chosen – or perhaps ‘agreed’- to listen and follow whatever messages, insights, and inspirations, follow. I sit with knowingness that indeed this will all make sense, once I stop trying to figure out what this means.
Sometimes the hardest thing in the world is to wait. Never having had children, I cannot really equate this with a pregnant woman waiting for her unborn child to arrive. I can, however, compare this to a project, which is still in its incipient stages. I have an awareness that something is being created, yet no idea how it will manifest or even what it will be. So I sit, waiting to be guided and led. Because what else is there to do? Around me are the sounds of neighbors in different apartments in the building I currently reside in.
Perhaps it is time to move. I know I no longer feel like I fit in. But I haven’t felt like I fit in for quite some time. …anywhere actually. Given the opportunity, I would probably continue as I am; comfortable, functioning yet not really flourishing. This is really challenging for me. I somewhat feel like the fat 12 year old who was invited to a popular girl’s birthday party because our mothers happened to be friends. I am here, but not really comfortable. I guess I might look at this as an indication that this isn’t how or where I need or even want.